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emma_in_dream) wrote2013-01-01 07:35 pm
emma_in_dream) wrote2013-01-01 07:35 pm
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A wish for grace
My New Year's Resolution is to handle my life with more grace and balance. Particularly, I want to be less anxious about the children's health and well-being.
I am well aware I am an anxious person with a tendency to see the worst case scenario and exactly how I am to achieve a state of balance is not yet clear to me.
I have tried getting to a counsellor but I have not found it helpful. What I am looking for is some practical strategy for not freaking out over the kids but what she told me is that I have to accept the consequences of my choices. Which I kinda feel I do every day.
What I need is some way to deal gracefully with living in a state of eternal uncertainty - the medical tests will never end, there will always be a possibility of something bad happening to the girls,* the endless deferral of what I would like to do with the girls in favour of medical stuff we have to do.
* Please do not remind me that something bad could happen to anyone at any time. Yes, my girls have the usual likelihood of being struck by lightning and on top of that elevated probabilities of tumours.
I am well aware I am an anxious person with a tendency to see the worst case scenario and exactly how I am to achieve a state of balance is not yet clear to me.
I have tried getting to a counsellor but I have not found it helpful. What I am looking for is some practical strategy for not freaking out over the kids but what she told me is that I have to accept the consequences of my choices. Which I kinda feel I do every day.
What I need is some way to deal gracefully with living in a state of eternal uncertainty - the medical tests will never end, there will always be a possibility of something bad happening to the girls,* the endless deferral of what I would like to do with the girls in favour of medical stuff we have to do.
* Please do not remind me that something bad could happen to anyone at any time. Yes, my girls have the usual likelihood of being struck by lightning and on top of that elevated probabilities of tumours.
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*lends you virtual worry hat*
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Note that not all meditation is the same: I found the specific kind of meditation I linked to quite helpful, unlike all the meditation I'd done before (which tended to say "Push distractions/anxiety out of your mind" rather than "accept that you will be distracted and anxious")