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emma_in_dream) wrote2010-05-06 01:53 pm
emma_in_dream) wrote2010-05-06 01:53 pm
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And now the flip-side
I am so happy to be pregnant, but I do genuinely have worries.
And I'm not looking for just reassurance on this. I do welcome your constructive criticism, despite my earlier post.
* That I might have a child like my sister (in the sense of her sleep patterns). She did not need more than four hours a day of sleep and didn't sleep through til she was six years old. Could I handle this?
* That I don't have enough money. I will have to go back to work after six months, which is virtually nothing. The poor little bubba probably won't be able to sit up at that age.
I really didn't want to go back when Pearl was 18 months but six will be even worse.
* The thought of going through establishing feeding again. (And also, finally weaning Pearl).
* That I might have a child I don't like! What if I don't like him or her? What if I find him or her irritating as I do some of the children from playgroup? We'll be locked together for the rest of our lives!
* What if I can't handle two sets of children needing things at the same time. How do I feed them both at the same time? Comfort them when they are both awake at the same time?
* And what if the poor child has something wrong with his or her genes due to my advanced age? The tests came back as 1 in 500 for Downes, which is a lot worse than Pearls 1 in 3,500. That's the difference that nearly three years makes.
* And what if Pearl does not like sharing my attention?
Oh, there are lots and lots of issues. However, I believe that all parents face these issues when they have babies. So hopefully I will soldier through. One thing at a time.
Right now, priority number one is for us both to get over this wretched cold that is making us so low.
And I'm not looking for just reassurance on this. I do welcome your constructive criticism, despite my earlier post.
* That I might have a child like my sister (in the sense of her sleep patterns). She did not need more than four hours a day of sleep and didn't sleep through til she was six years old. Could I handle this?
* That I don't have enough money. I will have to go back to work after six months, which is virtually nothing. The poor little bubba probably won't be able to sit up at that age.
I really didn't want to go back when Pearl was 18 months but six will be even worse.
* The thought of going through establishing feeding again. (And also, finally weaning Pearl).
* That I might have a child I don't like! What if I don't like him or her? What if I find him or her irritating as I do some of the children from playgroup? We'll be locked together for the rest of our lives!
* What if I can't handle two sets of children needing things at the same time. How do I feed them both at the same time? Comfort them when they are both awake at the same time?
* And what if the poor child has something wrong with his or her genes due to my advanced age? The tests came back as 1 in 500 for Downes, which is a lot worse than Pearls 1 in 3,500. That's the difference that nearly three years makes.
* And what if Pearl does not like sharing my attention?
Oh, there are lots and lots of issues. However, I believe that all parents face these issues when they have babies. So hopefully I will soldier through. One thing at a time.
Right now, priority number one is for us both to get over this wretched cold that is making us so low.