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emma_in_dreamHad a hideous day yesterday. Not enough sleep the night before, then nowhere to go in the hideous heat on a public holiday so stuck at home with the cranky kids.
I was stuck at the bottom of the Mazlo hierarchy of needs, so tired that I literally kept nodding my head down and then jerking back from the micro-sleeps. I was just above the need for oxygen, water and not having a bullet in the head.
Ruby just went off in the evening - not sure what went wrong (except that I was tired and in a terrible mood) but two and a half hours of screaming when she was held, screaming when she was not held and screaming when she was patted. Jesus.
Absolutely rotten parenting on my behalf, dealing with it with anger and resentment. Poor Pearl also unable to sleep in her new room next to the banshee.
Have yet to decide if it is a good idea to have them in together. Pearl calms down if I sit in the room with her quietly; if I do that Ruby gets excited. Very bad combination.
All the books on decluttering talk of the feeling of satisfaction in clearing things away, but frankly I just feel exhausted and unsure.
I was stuck at the bottom of the Mazlo hierarchy of needs, so tired that I literally kept nodding my head down and then jerking back from the micro-sleeps. I was just above the need for oxygen, water and not having a bullet in the head.
Ruby just went off in the evening - not sure what went wrong (except that I was tired and in a terrible mood) but two and a half hours of screaming when she was held, screaming when she was not held and screaming when she was patted. Jesus.
Absolutely rotten parenting on my behalf, dealing with it with anger and resentment. Poor Pearl also unable to sleep in her new room next to the banshee.
Have yet to decide if it is a good idea to have them in together. Pearl calms down if I sit in the room with her quietly; if I do that Ruby gets excited. Very bad combination.
All the books on decluttering talk of the feeling of satisfaction in clearing things away, but frankly I just feel exhausted and unsure.
